Factbomb Friday – STOP Wishing for it…

I’m just gonna dish out some tough love here: STOP wishing for it and START working for it.

I can barely count how many messages I get that begin with “I wish I was as XYZ as you…” and while it’s flattering, it also makes me feel like people might not realize that if I’m eating well, it’s BECAUSE I prep. If I’m having a healthy pregnancy, it’s BECAUSE I’m moving my body to the degree with which I’m able.

I’m not WISHING for it, I’m WORKING for it, because that, and ONLY that, is how you attain what you are aiming for.

Stop exerting energy on wishes, realize you are WORTH the efforts, and channel your energy into that – you will get MUCH further, I promise.

As always, if you need help, I got you! You are more capable than you think, but you gotta begin!

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Adventures in Pregnancy – ALL the feels…

Today, I cried.

I sat in my docs office discussing important things, and then suddenly, woooooosh, this POWERFUL wave of emotions completely overcame me, my voice broke, and I cried.

I am a verrrrrry emotional being, and I think no one is more surprised than myself that I haven’t sobbed my way through this pregnancy more than I actually have… and I think being so close (yet still. so. farrrr.) and discussing such real stuff kinda hit me hard, and I was no match for the emotions.

So I cried. I surrendered. She assured me these emotions and the manner they hit me were normal. We went and met with more of my team, we discussed some of the things concerning me, we made a plan, we discussed resources, we just simply talked it all out… and I felt better.

Am I still nervous? Of course! I’d be worried if I didn’t have any nerves about something so incredibly life changing.

But I DO have faith that through the various resources, we’ll get the support we need. I DO have faith that through various avenues, we will be able to bring in some income during my maternity leave (that was a huge part of my stress – feeling like I either had to take a 3 month, no-paycheck hit, which we are comfortable in life but not quite THAT comfortable, or leave my baby a mere two weeks after giving birth, which would honestly not only completely shatter my heart, but could also be disastrous to my health as we will need time to find the new normal for my blood sugars post partum!), and I DO have faith that every little thing will be alright, someway and somehow.

Knowing there are support systems and such in place, and hearing about these directly from those who deal with them every day, directly from the people who will handle much of it for me, went a long way towards easing the stress of wondering how I was gonna make all that work while also navigating the beginning of motherhood and all the powerful postpartum emotions I anticipate myself experiencing – and I think we’ve established what stress does to a diabetic, so I was definitely on this vicious cycle, and I’m happy to have climbed off and caught my breath.

As for all the other feelings, I consider them all normal; as I said, I would be more concerned if something so incredibly life changing wasn’t registering within my heart, mind, and soul. Knowing myself, and knowing what an emotionally charged person I am, I know this is normal for me and to be expected, and I’m incredibly blessed to have such a wonderful support team to guide me through, and incredible friends and family by my side.

They say it takes a village and I could NOT be more thankful, grateful, or blessed for the one we have; for the one that will help us welcome this tiny baby into the world.

💕

Adventures in Wellness – Pregnancy is not easy…

Today was a bit of a rough one… walking to appt in humidity, low blood sugars before lunch that had me super out of sorts, some general anxiety (mama’s, surely this is normal?!) and just feeling pretty drained… humidity is not my favorite and it definitely hits me a little harder when I’m this pregnant!

The good news is, tomorrow is a new day and so tonight is just being spent relaxing and snuggling with this little lovebug (because she’s the MASTER at relaxing and reminding me it’s IMPORTANT, even if there IS a trillion things to do!) and so between her friendly reminder and my husband handling dinner, I’m feeling a bit better and regrouping.

That humidity though… whewwwww. No joke!

 

Adventures in Wellness – I Missed A Monday!

So yesterday I did something extremely rare for me – I missed a Monday!

I still fully believe that you set the tone on Monday, but I was still pretty drained from this past weekend, and it didn’t feel necessary for me to push myself further, rather I felt it best to listen to my body as it let me know it needed some more rest.

I haven’t come all this way having a healthy pregnancy to make dumb decisions NOW!

This is not the same as skipping a Monday because you don’t want to workout, so I’m fine with it. This is what my very pregnant, very drained body needed, and in fact, I’m incredibly proud of how much I have grown on this journey – the Kara of the past definitely would have pushed herself all in the name of ‘never missing a Monday’, but I’ve grown and I have evolved, learning that sometimes rest IS best.

It felt awesome to get back to it today, though!

Adventures in Pregnancy – Gone Phishin’

Some get it, some don’t.

Everyone is different.

For me, live music, and especially Phish, have been some of my happiest, most soul-replenishing experiences.

I mean they’d have to be if I’m willing to do two nights in a row in the dead of summer at 8 months pregnant, right?!

Every live show I’m reminded how blessed I am that I still have enough hearing to enjoy them. It sounds silly, but live music is just my happy place and I’m just always grateful to experience it.

Most probably know the Curveball debacle – how excited I was for it, how much I NEEDED it after a rough year of family hurt, and how sad I was when it was cancelled without a note being played.

And I wanted a couple of shows before I dive into motherhood (for the record I will still see Phish as a mother, it just may not be quite as easy) – I needed a phix and I just wanted to go phishin’ with my friends!

And it was awesome! It was exhausting, but exhilarating. I walked over 8 miles in two days and danced a lot too. Yes, I also sat waaaay more than I ever have at any show (you usually can’t get me to stop bogeying – but I’m also not usually 8 months pregnant 😉) but I could still hear the music, see the lights, feel the vibe… I made it work for me!

And people were AWESOME! I got so many high fives, people asking me when I’m due and if I know what it is, countless people offered me waters, this sweet soul kept misting me with her water fan and actually let me borrow her little fishman donut hand fan… people showed me time and time again why I LOVE this community so much!

It was also pretty cool to feel the baby groove to his or her favorite songs – baby most definitely had some choice picks!

For the record, I went extremely prepared with snacks, water, a cooling cloth to be able to place on my neck, Gatorade, my insulin, a note from my doctor declaring I’m both diabetic and pregnant and should be allowed to keep my snacks and medical supplies with me – the gate attendants didn’t even need to see the letter but it never hurts to have it. I wore my shoes, not flip flops, to help all the walking, my husband and I never separated, I knew exactly where every bathroom was, and I was very attuned to my body and it’s limits and took breaks when I needed to, which is important.

It was hot, and it was a lot of work, and I definitely welcomed some downtime today with which to recover, but I don’t regret that experience at all, and I’m proud as eff of how my super pregnant little body held up (which was also helped by how active I’ve remained during my pregnancy!) and every day I become more and more awestruck at what my body is capable of!

So, everyone is different, but don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do things that are meaningful to you just because you are pregnant. Yes, there are things you shouldn’t do, and it really does vary by person/pregnancy, but provided you play smart, listen to your body, and vow to put the safety of yourself and your unborn baby first, you can totally go Phishin’ 8 months pregnant!

What a weekend for the books, and I’m so grateful 💕

Adventures in Pregnancy – Phishin’ night 1!

Baby definitely had his or her favorites last night, but the most movement came during The Squirming Coil!

I’ll chat more later about experiencing Phish 8 months pregnant, but night 1 went well and we had a blast and it was so. freakin. nice. to phinally get a phix after waaaay too long between shows (no thanks to you, Curveball! 😜)

Excited to see what night 2 brings! 🐠🎶💕