Sunday Struggles – Don’t Take Things Personally

Our STRUGGLES are part of our STORY.

I still struggle not to feel isolated. I still struggle to feel like I am part of things; to not feel lonely even when surrounded by people.

I think this is part and parcel with someone who lost her hearing at a crucial time in life. And I can’t speak for other hard of hearing people, but I would bet money that I’m not the only one who feels this way on occasion.

So when things like someone in our party saying goodbye to everyone but me threaten to set me back… I have to remind myself people are human and commit oversights; that the persons intent likely wasn’t to make me feel isolated or less than. Shit happens.

Most people don’t set out to make others feel that way, and I know this! My mental battle isn’t always confident in that, but I continue to work on that. I continue to remember that I matter and I’m not invisible, no matter how it seems/feels at times.

Your mind is your biggest obstacle to overcome. Trust me on that.

 

Thursday Thoughts – I MATTER.

Sometimes, I tend to care TOO much.

Draining.

It’s not uncommon for me to put the feelings of others ahead of my own.

Draining.

I would often so much rather avoid any confrontations or difficult conversations that I sit and stew, til the lid tends to boil over, and then I APOLOGIZE. Apologize for FEELING.

Draining.

I am quick to excuse people, to act like I don’t deserve basic human decency, or common courtesy.

Draining.

But here is my secret weapon – all the personal development I have done over the years? FINALLY clicked.

I matter. My needs matter. My feelings matter.

And since how you treat yourself is how others treat you – there’s gonna be some changes up in here. I am an empathetic person, I am always willing to listen and help someone, but I will no longer be sacrificing my own feelings and my own well-being for that.

You can’t pour from an empty cup. Trust me, I have tried, and tried, and tried. You can’t.

I doubt myself.

IMG_8966I tend to doubt myself sometimes.

And when I say doubt myself, I don’t mean a little doubt here, a little doubt there… much like everything else, when I doubt, I doubt HARD… I go ALL IN on the doubt. There’s no half-assing things for this girl, which is both a blessing and a curse, if I am being honest.

So when I DOUBT myself… goodness, DO. I. DOUBT. MYSELF. To the nth power.

Brutal.

Every day I fight the battle to keep limiting beliefs and self doubt at bay.

But here is my promise to myself – I WILL fight this battle. I WILL fall, and rise again. Every single time I doubt myself, I will remember what I have overcome, and I will keep going.

Thursday Thoughts – Show Up

Every day, I SHOW UP.

Some days I am ALL FIRED UP, and I kick ass, and it goes down in the history of productive days.

Other days, I take maybe ONE step closer to a better me, a better life. But I still take a step, and that step matters.

You are WORTH showing up every day, and every.single.step.matters, no matter how small. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise!

It is when you BELIEVE, and when you string together these moments, paired with those days that you are just uneffin’stoppable, that you are gonna SOAR.

So WILL you soar? Or are you content to just get by?

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