Saturday Sweat – Crushed It!

I mean shit, I absolutely crushed this move today; 10 rounds of it and this was actually the last round and I got FULL EXTENSION of my legs and DID NOT topple over this time…

This move was always hard for me to get enough oomph to get a full extension, because it is the last move of a round, and my wrists are always shredded by the time we get to it, but today was no problem! Felt awesome to get some solid ones in!

• C R U S H E D.   I T. •

It’s Saturday – who’s getting their sweat on?!


Sunday Runday!

Today wasn’t a 5k but, because I want to run at least once a week, I went out for a two mile jaunt.

I also shocked myself by apparently crushing incline?! Haha, running never ceases to make me shock myself!

It’s important to note that years past I would have insisted that my Map My Run app was broken and I didn’t REALLY run a 6.5 minute mile… but I’m tired of always taking away from my own achievements. I’m always encouraging others to own their badassery, time to walk that walk!


Flashback Friday – Skinny Shaming

**vulnerable post alert!!**

I am 19 in this #flashbackFriday pic. I am actually the heaviest weight I have ever been here, in this pic at age 19… I am currently 35.

In one of my challenge groups recently, we were talking about things we had done before Beachbody – Weight Watchers, cabbage soup diet, etc – and whether or not any of it worked…

I was NEVER the girl who tried diets. I never starved or denied myself stuff. I always loved my fruits and veggies (and the carbs! oh, the carbs!) and I mean, sure, I like junk food as much as anyone, but I was never that girl who binged and purged. I ate, I enjoyed. I LIVED.

I was ACTUALLY the girl working EXTRA HARD to stuff my face to COUNTERACT the constant comments and accusations of an eating disorder for much of my life – I was “skinny fat” and had ZERO muscle tone, and I thought nothing of “working out” for an hour and then heading off to half priced apps with coworkers and eating enough junk to fill me up for 3 days.

I was always small – small is just how I am. But there were SO many people who could NOT accept that – they would tell me to eat a sandwich or a burger (of which I DID eat plenty – I love food!), accuse me of eating disorders and depriving myself, and make snide, hurtful comments.

Look – I know FAT SHAMING is a problem in this world, but SKINNY SHAMING is just as bad!

Can we JUST STOP SHAMING people for their bodies?! Please? That shit has lasting impressions and consequences. And it’s unnecessary!

To this day, I can’t stand the word skinny – I don’t want it associated with myself or my health. I still flinch when people tell me “you are so skinny!”

I am fit. I have muscles. I am toned. I am FIERCE!

And it honestly WAS Beachbody and the challenge groups and the fitness programs and the COMMUNITY that made me see it’s OKAY to be all of that. It’s okay to eat real food, to strike the BALANCE. It was this very community that helped me realize it is OKAY to be SMALL but strong and fierce – that is just how I am built!

I wish the me NOW could go back and tell the me of the past NOT to cry over people’s sometimes extremely harsh words. I would tell her she has NOTHING to prove to anyone but herself, so EMBRACE being the tiny little badass you know you can be, and pay absolutely zero attention to anything or anyone saying otherwise!

(but seriously, can we just stop any and all body shaming? please?)

Flex Friday – How Far I Have Come

Many people don’t know that just a few short years ago, my back, neck and shoulders were in a constant state of pain – the pain levels varied, but were always there.

This was the result of my body going through multiple traumatic car incidents in 8 months time.

Carrying a purse hurt. Taking steps hurt, and sometimes actually triggered spasms. It always hurt. And that was the exact excuse I used when I was offered to join a challenge group – “ummmm walking and existing hurts, you want me to do actual physically demanding stuff?” – that was my frame of mind. “YIKES!”

But for whatever reason I did join. I modified HEAVILY but I showed up, consistently. Started to get a little stronger. Started to strengthen my core, which greatly relieved the pain issues. So I kept going.

Today, I am pain free – certain things do sometimes trigger it (being outside in very cold temps for long periods of time, sitting or laying on hard surfaces, etc) but my quality of life is MUCH better now, and I am so thankful.

And that’s why I take these “silly flex” pics. To show how far I have come. To have something to compare to as I go further. A visual reminder that consistent effort pays off, and we are never stuck in a cycle of pain.

It doesn’t happen overnight, but it does happen! Keep going!

Flex Friday – Back

This is an EMOTIONAL flex pic to post…

See, there was a time when not only were my back/shoulders not muscular, but they were in PAIN. Two back to back accidents where I was rear ended had them fragile and weak.

At one point, it was painful to even carry a purse, and I have never been the type to carry a heavy purse loaded with everything but the kitchen sink, but it was painful to even have a small purse with just my wallet and cell phone in it.

And if you have ever had a back/shoulder injury, you know how it affects EVERY part of your body, so all of me was becoming a pile of weak mush. I almost didn’t even accept Rebecca’s invite to her Challenge Group, citing my back injuries and how I was still having pain and spasms, even several years removed from the accidents.

But I said YES. I modified HEAVILY, but I kept going. If something caused actual pain, I eased up a little, but I kept moving on a regular basis.

As I strengthened my CORE, I strengthened EVERYTHING, so my back spasms CEASED, the pain SUBSIDED for the most part (still have the occasional day where my lower back is a little tender), and I got stronger and stronger.

And so here we are today – I regularly complete intense programs with no pain. I have some muscles, and some definition. I feel strong.

And I can truly say, when I was in the throes of feeling weak and in pain, I TRULY never thought the day would come where I not only FEEL strong, but I can SEE evidence of my strength and how far I have come, too.

Don’t let your current circumstances keep you from starting – the name of the game is modifying until you don’t have to anymore. I speak from experience; I am living PROOF.

Transformation Tuesday – Pushups

I HATED pushups.

I couldn’t do them.

They caused pain in my shoulders, a lingering injury from a car accident many moons ago.
And they made me feel WEAK.

And I hate feeling weak (does anyone actually ENJOY that?!), so I would avoid doing them. I would just chalk it up to I am not meant to do pushups, and do something less painful. No harm, no foul right?

Wrong. Because DOING them – first in a modified format, then in the real way – is what strengthened me. I participated in my own group called Guns Buns and Abs, and each day called for additional pushups… and so I did them. And I got better. And somewhere along that line, the pain stopped.

 Pushups stopped being a source of PAIN, and started being a source of PRIDE.

If you take any moral from this, it’s your only limitations exist in your head. EVICT them, and watch yourself FLOURISH!

Do you struggle with pushups?

Truthbomb Tuesday – Uninspired

Time for a truthbomb!

One of the biggest excuses people give is “I’m too tired”, and I get it. Life is exhausting; I feel you there!

But I don’t think it’s a matter of being TIRED… I think it is more a case of being UNINSPIRED. When you truly want something, it fuels that fire inside of you – you feel jazzed to get to work on it, you draw energy and inspiration from taking action.

Don’t work 8 hours at a job and then go home and NOT work on your OWN goals… if you truly want to achieve these things, you will take at least one step every day towards them, no matter how big or small said steps are.