Every week, twice a week, I email my Diabetes/pregnancy team my numbers for the last few days – my numbers at wakeup (fasted, since I don’t eat in my sleep… I don’t think! 😉), before and after each meal. And this is how they determine if I need to take more insulin or not to counter the pregnancy hormones and the havoc they can wreak on a Diabetic.
And most of the time, my numbers are pretty good – we have worked HARD to find a good balance and I work really hard to eat well, drink water, stay active, and manage my stress.
And other times, like weekends full of parties and BBQ’s, they aren’t quite as good, but still not terrible. Life is about balance, it’s just a matter of accommodating this balance.
And sometimes, even through pretty flawless effort on my part, hormones just do. their. thang, and this was a lot for me to accept and acclimate to, as my first instinct was, as usual, to look inward and blame MYSELF for something I was/was not doing.
And if you have followed my diabetic journey, you know I have DEFINITELY seen my share of struggles. Pregnancy added quite a few layers to that, because that’s what pregnancy does to a body.
And if you know me, you know I like to fix things; if somethings not right, I wanna make it so it is. This is ESPECIALLY important in my own health.
And my team is awesome, truly. They are so encouraging and empowering, compassionate and knowledgeable.
I feel safe and capable with them guiding me through something I’ve never gone through.
I don’t look for the praise as much as I look for reassurance from a professional that my numbers are good and I’m on the right track, and doing the best I can for this baby who is solely relying on ME, but when the lead nurse emails me and it includes this praise, it goes right to my heart and reminds me that I’m capable, I’m a warrior, and I can do hard things!
“You are a Rock Star!
They are perfect!”
Some may see it as just words, but who amongst us hasn’t gotten a little boost, a little pep in their step from someone’s kindness?
Be the light in someone’s life – be the one who lifts them up and reassures them that whatever life throws at them, they. can. handle. it.