Diabetic Life – Insurance Companies…

When an insulin pen that typically lasts 10-12 days has to last 15 because insurance companies like to go on power trips…

BUT…

Your AWESOME diabetic team basically calls em up and gets it all situated for you, saying under no circumstances should ANY diabetic, much less one 36 weeks pregnant (thus battling some pretty raging hormones, if you catch my drift…) be “rationing” their remaining insulin, so you go in and happily pick up your supply a few days later, instead of needing to ration your insulin.

There’s a lot that can be said here but rather than get into the fuckery of insurance and their red tape/regulations, I’m choosing to focus on the power of COMMUNICATION. By communicating my situation to my team, they were able to advocate and find a solution for me, happily, as that is their job and what they are paid to do. They wield more power than we the consumers do, so let them help!

Do not “suffer in silence” – speak up and let someone help you; there is always a way!

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GratiTuesday – Healthy and Fit Pregnancy!

Can’t we do both?! 😉

Ahhh, gratiTuesday… I’m grateful I’ve been able to stay active during my pregnancy. Not only has this greatly helped keep my sugars {{mostly}} stable, but it’s also gone a long way towards helping me mentally and emotionally, too. I feel my best when I’m moving my body, and I think we all know that when we feel our best, we are much more equipped to handle the many ebbs and flows of life!

While I have definitely slowed down considerably, I’m still focusing on getting 15-20 minutes of movement 4-5 times a week, and I think it’s a good balance for me… plus naps, LOTS of naps.

8 months pregnant… what!?

8 months today.

Still trying to wrap my head around that, honestly.

Pregnancy is the only thing I’ve experienced where time speeds up while slowing down, simultaneously.

What 8 months means for me includes a much, much foggier brain, which means I don’t remember much so if you wanna tell me something important, make sure I write it down… it means a much slower lifestyle (when I’m running errands I’m moving slowly but I feel like I’m not even moving!), it means much more emotional sensitivity, a little more anxiety, MANY more pee breaks (we’ve blurred the line between breaks now so life feels like one giant pee break), more heat sensitivity, oh and so much excitement to meet this little nugget that has graduated from punching and kicking my insides to head butting me…

All in all, still feeling pretty good, still grateful for this whole experience, still in disbelief at how fast (and yet, slo-o-o-ow) my pregnancy has gone and yet, still wanna keep this baby safe and protected inside of me forever (figuratively, NOT literally!)

(Yes, I have totally popped recently! Don’t adjust your screens, you aren’t imagining things!)

GratiTuesday – Diabetic Team

Every week, twice a week, I email my Diabetes/pregnancy team my numbers for the last few days – my numbers at wakeup (fasted, since I don’t eat in my sleep… I don’t think! 😉), before and after each meal. And this is how they determine if I need to take more insulin or not to counter the pregnancy hormones and the havoc they can wreak on a Diabetic.

And most of the time, my numbers are pretty good – we have worked HARD to find a good balance and I work really hard to eat well, drink water, stay active, and manage my stress.

And other times, like weekends full of parties and BBQ’s, they aren’t quite as good, but still not terrible. Life is about balance, it’s just a matter of accommodating this balance.

And sometimes, even through pretty flawless effort on my part, hormones just do. their. thang, and this was a lot for me to accept and acclimate to, as my first instinct was, as usual, to look inward and blame MYSELF for something I was/was not doing.

And if you have followed my diabetic journey, you know I have DEFINITELY seen my share of struggles. Pregnancy added quite a few layers to that, because that’s what pregnancy does to a body.

And if you know me, you know I like to fix things; if somethings not right, I wanna make it so it is. This is ESPECIALLY important in my own health.

And my team is awesome, truly. They are so encouraging and empowering, compassionate and knowledgeable.

I feel safe and capable with them guiding me through something I’ve never gone through.

I don’t look for the praise as much as I look for reassurance from a professional that my numbers are good and I’m on the right track, and doing the best I can for this baby who is solely relying on ME, but when the lead nurse emails me and it includes this praise, it goes right to my heart and reminds me that I’m capable, I’m a warrior, and I can do hard things!

“You are a Rock Star!
They are perfect!”

Some may see it as just words, but who amongst us hasn’t gotten a little boost, a little pep in their step from someone’s kindness?

Be the light in someone’s life – be the one who lifts them up and reassures them that whatever life throws at them, they. can. handle. it.

💕

Adventures in Pregnancy – Baby Shower Blessings!

I honestly don’t even have the proper words… I’ve been trying to think about how I could sum today up for hours now and yet nothing seems SUFFICIENT enough to do it the JUSTICE it deserves, so all I will say is thank you to everyone who came, or sent gifts/love/well wishes, offered advice, etc…

We are just so beyond grateful to be surrounded by so many people who already love this baby just as much as Dave and I do!

It took several trucks, and the baby’s room is full of stuff… but we won’t be wanting for anything, and we couldn’t be more grateful!

Also, special thanks to my mom Linda, my sister Lisa and my best girl Liana for throwing Baby Aguiar an adorable shower right up his or her alley!

 

Diabadass Life

I cried today.

Happy, relieved, grateful, prideful tears.

My diabetic specialist came in during my appointment and was remarking at how perfect my numbers have been the last few weeks. She said she’s never really seen such steady, controlled numbers from a type 1, and she loves the variety of the nutritious foods I consume.

I don’t get much positive feedback regarding my diabetes whatsoever… not because my regular doctor is negative or anything, but because unfortunately, his praise was always followed by a ‘but…’ because my numbers have NEVER reflected my efforts, ever.

So he would encourage me, and when he’d listen to my eating and lifestyle habits he would always say I’m doing everything right… but again, my numbers never reflected that, which is honestly one of the more frustrating things I’ve experienced; this continuous, years-long hampster wheel loop of hard work but getting nowhere.

So today, to get such good news, kind words and sweet praise without a ‘but’, it went right to my heart, it sung to my feelings… it felt SO good.

It was a VERY welcome boost, a feeling I’ve been chasing for some time now… not so much the praise, but more so the feeling of my Diabetes being controlled… that is a feeling that has eluded me for so many years… TOO MANY years.

So today, I cried. I fought them, but they slipped out. And my gratitude actually caused her to get misty eyed, too.

And I know, as she said, there will be elevated numbers with no rhyme or reason; no explanation, nothing I did or didn’t do… that’s just the relationship between diabetes and pregnancy hormones.

But now I know how to “fix” that; now I feel capable and {{sorta}} in control – it’s been forever since I felt that way! 💕

Monday Mood Boost – Gratitude Never Goes Out Of Style!

A while back, I shared my gratitude for my medical team, and mentioned we’ve added some new members…

When I first found out I was pregnant, I was gonna be seeing a high risk ob gyn, in addition to my regular endocrinologist, and he really wanted me to see a nutritionist too – not because my eating habits are poor, but because managing blood sugars with surging pregnancy hormones is VERY complex.

Now if you do some math, that’s a lot of appointments, and while I have some flexibility at work and can make up hours as necessary, that’s still a lot.

When my endo was reviewing my numbers, he felt it best I switch to the services of an ob gyn who specializes in Diabetic pregnancies at Maternal Fetal Medicine, and alongside that, I see two Diabetes specialists who get twice weekly blood sugars reports, and I see them plus my nutritionist every other week.

Yes, it’s a lot… but the beauty of this switch is that it’s become “one stop shopping” – all of these services are located in the same place and all happen at the same appointment, which in addition to being a lot more convenient, SIGNIFICANTLY helps my brain keep track – something I was struggling to do between the sheer number of appointments in varying locations and the very real concept of pregnancy brain (folks, it’s the realest. thing. ever.)

I’m where I need to be, for my health and the health and development of my baby, and while at first I was frustrated at the idea of switching to yet another doctor (I’ve certainly had no shortage of them in my life), I understood WHY the switch was best, and I remained open minded and willing to do what’s best for myself and my baby.

And still, I’m so grateful for this team – they empower me, encourage me, make me feel capable and confident (I had a rough beginning to my pregnancy as we struggled to get my blood sugars under control and that definitely caused some insecure moments…) and I’m just grateful to have such a solid team guiding me through one of the hardest, but also one of the most rewarding things I’ve gone through.

Gratitude never goes out of style 💕