Adventures in Pregnancy – ALL the feels…

Today, I cried.

I sat in my docs office discussing important things, and then suddenly, woooooosh, this POWERFUL wave of emotions completely overcame me, my voice broke, and I cried.

I am a verrrrrry emotional being, and I think no one is more surprised than myself that I haven’t sobbed my way through this pregnancy more than I actually have… and I think being so close (yet still. so. farrrr.) and discussing such real stuff kinda hit me hard, and I was no match for the emotions.

So I cried. I surrendered. She assured me these emotions and the manner they hit me were normal. We went and met with more of my team, we discussed some of the things concerning me, we made a plan, we discussed resources, we just simply talked it all out… and I felt better.

Am I still nervous? Of course! I’d be worried if I didn’t have any nerves about something so incredibly life changing.

But I DO have faith that through the various resources, we’ll get the support we need. I DO have faith that through various avenues, we will be able to bring in some income during my maternity leave (that was a huge part of my stress – feeling like I either had to take a 3 month, no-paycheck hit, which we are comfortable in life but not quite THAT comfortable, or leave my baby a mere two weeks after giving birth, which would honestly not only completely shatter my heart, but could also be disastrous to my health as we will need time to find the new normal for my blood sugars post partum!), and I DO have faith that every little thing will be alright, someway and somehow.

Knowing there are support systems and such in place, and hearing about these directly from those who deal with them every day, directly from the people who will handle much of it for me, went a long way towards easing the stress of wondering how I was gonna make all that work while also navigating the beginning of motherhood and all the powerful postpartum emotions I anticipate myself experiencing – and I think we’ve established what stress does to a diabetic, so I was definitely on this vicious cycle, and I’m happy to have climbed off and caught my breath.

As for all the other feelings, I consider them all normal; as I said, I would be more concerned if something so incredibly life changing wasn’t registering within my heart, mind, and soul. Knowing myself, and knowing what an emotionally charged person I am, I know this is normal for me and to be expected, and I’m incredibly blessed to have such a wonderful support team to guide me through, and incredible friends and family by my side.

They say it takes a village and I could NOT be more thankful, grateful, or blessed for the one we have; for the one that will help us welcome this tiny baby into the world.

💕

Wellness Wednesday – Know when to be gentle!

This mornings mood boost provided by a new flavor of iced coffee – pistachio! 😍

Normally my mood boosts come in the form of endorphins from a workout… but today I couldn’t even muster the energy to get out of bed. I’m dealing with some intense emotions and I just wanted to sleep (or try…), and even though working out usually helps my mood, today I chose to be gentle and focus on resting.

Wellness includes knowing when not to push – knowing when to be gentle with yourself. Took me waaaay too long to grasp that, but I’m better for it!

Transformation Tuesday – Handling Frustrations!

It’s Tuesday, so let’s talk about a little •transformation•, shall we?!

In a bit of a testament to how far I’ve come mentally/handling frustrations, when my BOD disconnected this morning and wouldn’t reconnect, while I was barely 1/3 of the way through my workout, instead of getting pissy and frustrated like I normally would, I simply decided since Sara was doing the same workout and we were on a Live Zoom, she could be my trainer and I’d just follow what she did!

Stayed calm and made it work 🙌🏼

Troubleshooting technology at 4am is not my idea of a good time, but I also didn’t want to miss my workout!

It was much better to just workaround it than to spend time and energy being frustrated and fiddling around.

I wouldn’t always have such a “shit happens” reaction (because you don’t eff with a girls workout/stress relief!), so it was nice to see how far I’ve come, and I’m proud of myself!

If you must look back, do so only to see how. far. you. have. come. 💕

Wednesday Wisdom – You Can’t Pour From An Empty Cup

You know how on a plane, they tell you in the event of an emergency, put your own oxygen mask on first…?

Sometimes, I tend to care about stuff TOO much.

Draining.

It’s not uncommon for me to put the feelings of others ahead of my own.

Draining.

I would often so much rather avoid any confrontations or difficult conversations that I sit and stew, til the lid tends to boil over, and then I APOLOGIZE. Apologize for FEELING.

Draining.

I am quick to excuse people, to act like I don’t deserve respect, basic human decency, or common courtesy.

Draining.

But… all the personal development I have done over the years FINALLY clicked.

And I REALIZED…

I MATTER. My NEEDS matter. My FEELINGS matter.

And since how you treat yourself is how others treat you – there’s gonna be some changes up in here. I am an empathetic person, I am always willing to listen and help someone, but I will no longer be sacrificing my own feelings and my own wellbeing for that.

You can’t pour from an empty cup. Trust me, I have tried, and tried, and tried. You can’t.

Truthbomb Tuesday – Be Gentle, It’s a Tough Time

The holiday season is just so tough. Losses feel more profound around this time, memories flood your emotions…

But maybe instead of telling people to snap out of it and get in the holiday cheer, maybe offer them a hug, a kind word or something?

Most are not trying to be Grinchy. We’re not trying to bring anyone down. It’s just a hard time.

We could all use a little extra love 💕

(Yes, there are exceptions; some are just Grinchy, like this guy 😉)

Who You Are Wednesday – Empaths Unite!

I am an empath to my core.

I am overemotional, I wear my heart on my sleeve and I feel things with every freakin’ fiber of my being.

Sometimes I give the thoughts, feelings, and situations more energy and emotion than I care to admit, but if the alternative is being indifferent and unfeeling, I’ll take how I am 10/10 times.

I don’t always love being so sensitive and in all honesty, sometimes it’s really, really hard… but this is me. This is who I am. This is how I am.

Life is not about “creating” yourself, it’s about shining your love and light, and embracing who you really are.

And I’m simply a sensitive, pint sized ball of emotions.

It is what it is 😊

 

Emotional eaters, rejoice! Help is on the way!

Any emotional eaters out there? Maybe you let food dictate your lifestyle? Maybe you can’t control your intake? Maybe you start off with honorable intentions but before you know it, you are in a downward spiral?

Do you drown your emotions in a plate of nachos, or a pint of Ben & Jerry’s? Do you eat out of boredom? Do you restrict certain foods, labeling them “bad”? Do you feel like you are chained to a negative mindset around food?

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Food is to NOURISH us. To fuel us. Food is meant to be ENJOYED >> not used as a punishment or a crutch to blanket your emotional state with.

I get it… I am an emotional eater to my CORE. As a Diabetic, that’s not ideal, to say the least.

But FINALLY… a program that will focus on the “why” not the how, and will also focus on IDENTIFYING the TRIGGERS that make it hard to lose weight and maintain a healthy lifestyle.

It will help you SHIFT your MINDSET; no more EMOTIONAL eating, no more MINDLESS snacking, and no more PUNISHING yourself for eating food you LOVE.

You guys KNOW how big I am on MINDSET!

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