Diabadass Life

I cried today.

Happy, relieved, grateful, prideful tears.

My diabetic specialist came in during my appointment and was remarking at how perfect my numbers have been the last few weeks. She said she’s never really seen such steady, controlled numbers from a type 1, and she loves the variety of the nutritious foods I consume.

I don’t get much positive feedback regarding my diabetes whatsoever… not because my regular doctor is negative or anything, but because unfortunately, his praise was always followed by a ‘but…’ because my numbers have NEVER reflected my efforts, ever.

So he would encourage me, and when he’d listen to my eating and lifestyle habits he would always say I’m doing everything right… but again, my numbers never reflected that, which is honestly one of the more frustrating things I’ve experienced; this continuous, years-long hampster wheel loop of hard work but getting nowhere.

So today, to get such good news, kind words and sweet praise without a ‘but’, it went right to my heart, it sung to my feelings… it felt SO good.

It was a VERY welcome boost, a feeling I’ve been chasing for some time now… not so much the praise, but more so the feeling of my Diabetes being controlled… that is a feeling that has eluded me for so many years… TOO MANY years.

So today, I cried. I fought them, but they slipped out. And my gratitude actually caused her to get misty eyed, too.

And I know, as she said, there will be elevated numbers with no rhyme or reason; no explanation, nothing I did or didn’t do… that’s just the relationship between diabetes and pregnancy hormones.

But now I know how to “fix” that; now I feel capable and {{sorta}} in control – it’s been forever since I felt that way! 💕

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Monday Mood Boost – Gratitude Never Goes Out Of Style!

A while back, I shared my gratitude for my medical team, and mentioned we’ve added some new members…

When I first found out I was pregnant, I was gonna be seeing a high risk ob gyn, in addition to my regular endocrinologist, and he really wanted me to see a nutritionist too – not because my eating habits are poor, but because managing blood sugars with surging pregnancy hormones is VERY complex.

Now if you do some math, that’s a lot of appointments, and while I have some flexibility at work and can make up hours as necessary, that’s still a lot.

When my endo was reviewing my numbers, he felt it best I switch to the services of an ob gyn who specializes in Diabetic pregnancies at Maternal Fetal Medicine, and alongside that, I see two Diabetes specialists who get twice weekly blood sugars reports, and I see them plus my nutritionist every other week.

Yes, it’s a lot… but the beauty of this switch is that it’s become “one stop shopping” – all of these services are located in the same place and all happen at the same appointment, which in addition to being a lot more convenient, SIGNIFICANTLY helps my brain keep track – something I was struggling to do between the sheer number of appointments in varying locations and the very real concept of pregnancy brain (folks, it’s the realest. thing. ever.)

I’m where I need to be, for my health and the health and development of my baby, and while at first I was frustrated at the idea of switching to yet another doctor (I’ve certainly had no shortage of them in my life), I understood WHY the switch was best, and I remained open minded and willing to do what’s best for myself and my baby.

And still, I’m so grateful for this team – they empower me, encourage me, make me feel capable and confident (I had a rough beginning to my pregnancy as we struggled to get my blood sugars under control and that definitely caused some insecure moments…) and I’m just grateful to have such a solid team guiding me through one of the hardest, but also one of the most rewarding things I’ve gone through.

Gratitude never goes out of style 💕

Happy Friday!

Happy February, happy Friday!

Bloodwork today, hoping that it reflects the insulin is continuing to do its job, and if so, discussing the possibility of getting off the pills, as I don’t feel they did anything and I think everyone knows how I feel about pharmaceuticals (I realize and accept that I am now married to insulin for life…)

But if not today, we are closer; I know it!

 

Flashback Friday – WHY

•WHY?•

The other night during a meeting, we were encouraged to revisit our WHY, and I’ll confess, it had been a while since I paid any attention to WHY I workout, WHY I eat sensibly, WHY I manage my stress and emotions, WHY I share all of that with you all…

I’d love to act like I just GREW UP and realized it’s time to take care of myself… but truthfully, there was something MAJOR propelling me into action.

The dreaded D word – Diabetes. (And yes, I DO still carry my original A1c around with me to remind myself how far I have come!)

Many people know that when I made an appointment with my primary care physician to get my blood sugars checked out after fairly alarming results at a work-sponsored health fair, I simply expected a stern “get your carb and candy habit under control”… I DID NOT expect to leave the office with a Diabetic diagnosis!

And so after that seemingly crippling information processed through my brain and my emotions, I sprang into action, because I’m a LOT of things, but PASSIVE isn’t one of them!

I plugged into LEARNING more about food and nutrition, I started doing workouts I ENJOYED – ones that left me feeling ENERGIZED, not annoyed, I plugged into a COMMUNITY of others just trying to be their best selves, and I made small but super MEANINGFUL changes to how I handle things mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

My ongoing challenge group and the community have played a HUGE role in keeping me accountable to healthy habits and I am so GRATEFUL for such a safe, uplifting, empowering place!

If YOU need that kind of love, motivation and support, we got you and would LOVE to have you; you are NEVER alone in anything you are dealing with, and we are ALWAYS better together!

You know where to find me 💕

Whole Foods Wednesday – Why Are Egg Sammiches Not Good For You?!

I love food. Like, LOVE FOOD.

And breakfast sammiches rank hiiiiiigh on my list of favorites. And I could (and if my health wouldn’t suffer for it, would…) eat them every day!

But I don’t, because that’s not balance. When I start my morning with a good-for-me breakfast, most often, the rest of the day just flows much better!

I still enjoy a bagel (boy do I enjoy it!) or a breakfast sammich, because, BALANCE… but for me, my health, and my goals, that’s not the norm, and I’m grateful I enjoy, and my body responds well to, cleaner breakfasts!

Today: farina with a tsp of Maple syrup, cinnamon, apples and walnuts – so good!

Diabetic Life – Switching to Type 1 Treatment

The saga continues…

Bloodwork today has me down to 6.8 from 7.3 in May, which is good. We have no idea what’s making the difference, but I mean, I’ll take it…

But starting now, we are treating my Diabetes as Type 1, not Type 2 as we have been for the last 8+ years.

Which means more needles. 😩

But Type 1 would make a LOT more sense, so while I do not at all LOVE the idea of needing to inject insulin into my body daily, I am opting to do so because doing everything right and not only seeing no progress but seeing things get WORSE is one of the most FRUSTRATING things I have ever experienced, so much so that I will VOLUNTARILY inject myself every single day if it means it will help me get back to controlled Diabetes instead of spinning my wheels.

I’m a lot of things, but a fan of “hamster-wheeling” isn’t one of ‘em!

So I’ll go back in a month to see if this new path of treatment is helping and we will reassess then, but I actually already feel a lot better knowing it’s likely not something I’m doing or not doing/consuming or not consuming that was contributing to such disastrous health results.

Fingers crossed this sets me on the proper path 💕

Sunday Shakeolgy

It DOESN’T keep me from never having the real deal (be it chocolate or cheesecake!)

It DOES help me keep most indulgences sensible, not whole-aisle or whole-cake style 😉

Look, small victories like that freakin’ matter – far be it from me to say it would work for everyone, but it definitely helps me keep this sweet tooth {{mostly}} in check!

Could you use some help with that?

Freefallin’…

Freefallin’.

That’s what I have been doing lately, at least nutritionally (and if I am being honest, in many other aspects of life, too…)

But nutritionally I have definitely been throwing WAY too much caution to the wind and not only am I feeling as such within my emotions, my body is feeling the effects too.

It started with birthday cake (what, I shared!) and then leftover birthday cake, and it just sent me into a tailspin – much more alcoholic beverages, much more candy (something I actually hadn’t had too much of in 2018!), just a lot more choices that haven’t nourished me.

The good news? It’s Monday and I am ready to get back on track towards making such indulgences the exception, not the rule!

Like anyone else, I have my moments of veering waaaay off track – but I have also righted my own ship many a time, so I know I can do this! 😊

Do you ever struggle nutritionally?