Thankful Thursday – Type 1 Diabetes treatment

I am STUNNED.

I had blood work today, 3 months after we began treating me as a Type 1 Diabetic, after treating as a Type 2 the previous 8+ years.

It’s been a LONG TIME since I left my doctors office happy and feeling positive! 😊

As a Type 2, I was doing everything right (but not perfectly), and it was actually making me worse… consistently boosting my numbers and well, to say that was defeating and frustrating wouldn’t even begin to cover it.

And I’ll admit to serious resistance to treat as Type 1 because as I have been very open about, the idea of more needles/injections was absolutely nauseating.

But I agreed to give it a try because, while I hate to use the word ‘desperation’, that’s what my attempts to get my Diabetes under control had become, and I honestly couldn’t stand that.

The bad results despite my efforts were stressing me out, which was making said results even worse. It was a vicious cycle and I finally recognized I couldn’t keep doing this hamster wheel junk.

And my first visit since we changed my course of treatment (a month into the new treatment), I wasn’t too impressed BUT I did decide I was going to trust my DOCTOR when he told me to trust my BODY – that this period of adjustment was both necessary and normal; that my body was doing what it needed to do.

(And it was HARD to trust the process… but believe it or not, I can DO hard things!)

I went in today expecting bad numbers because honestly, October kicked my ass; my stress levels were through the roof and I ate every ounce of my emotions.

But here, today, he gave me my lowest numbers in over 4 years. He gave me a number that, while still having room for improvement, has me sitting pretty as a controlled Diabetic… and that’s what I have longed for, that’s what I have been working towards for YEARS.

It’s still work, on my end… day in, day out. But the takeaway here, for me, is it’s important to stay open minded and be willing to go out of your comfort zone to do what’s best for yourself. You are worth that.

Sometimes it’s what you resist the most that can also HELP you the most!

Fuck Yeah Friday – Setting Up For A Comeback!

Some people expressed surprise that I was at Summit this year because I guess I’ve been kinda quiet on the ‘helping others’ homefront…

It’s a lot of moving parts but it’s mostly that it’s clear I need to focus a little more on my own wellness right now – I tend to pour my heart into OTHERS and put myself on the back burner and it became clear that wasn’t working for me.

And in all honesty, I felt like a hypocrite talking about anything wellness when despite all my efforts, my own health felt like it was in the tank.

But here’s what I know. Giving up won’t help. Making excuses won’t help. Blaming other things or other people won’t help.

What DOES help? Accountability. Support. To know I have a tribe of people who have my back, who can remind me I’m bigger than this; remind me just how damn far I have come. To encourage me to keep going.

My success group provides all of this for me and I’m so grateful for it!

And so consider this a “rebirth” of sorts – I’m still focusing on my own journey, but I want to do it with YOU, together. I want to help YOU. Whatever you are battling, we are stronger TOGETHER!

I’m ready – are you?

Truthbomb Tuesday – You Can’t Pour From An Empty Cup

I have been a bit quieter because I have been dealing with some stuff, and much of it required my attention and focus, so it seemed best to just ease up a little and allow myself the space I needed.

That right there indicates my growth over the years – in the past, I would struggle mightily with stepping back from ANYTHING, and I would have just continued to run myself ragged. Isn’t it the best feeling when you REALIZE you can’t pour from an empty cup?

Motivation Monday – Follow Through on your Goals

A lot of people get excited at first, all gung ho, ready to slay any obstacles that may come in their paths… and then it tapers until it’s just like “eh…”

I get it – I have declared tons of goals and then watched them taper off. Luckily for me, the most important ones are the ones I follow through with.

Following through with goals can be challenging because it takes work, dedication, thick skin, getting comfortable with being uncomfortable, and belief.

Follow Through on your Goals

These are some ways to help you follow through on those goals. It’s not going to be easy but if you have been reading my blog, you know by now that I fully believe anything you truly want is worth working hard for. No shortcuts here.