Today has just been one of those days where pregnancy kicks my ass.
I’m blessed this isn’t the norm, and grateful I have a husband who can prepare the slightly indulgent dinner my heart desires (WITHOUT judging me 😉)… tomorrow is a new day!
Did you have an easy pregnancy?
I honestly don’t even have the proper words… I’ve been trying to think about how I could sum today up for hours now and yet nothing seems SUFFICIENT enough to do it the JUSTICE it deserves, so all I will say is thank you to everyone who came, or sent gifts/love/well wishes, offered advice, etc…
We are just so beyond grateful to be surrounded by so many people who already love this baby just as much as Dave and I do!
It took several trucks, and the baby’s room is full of stuff… but we won’t be wanting for anything, and we couldn’t be more grateful!
Also, special thanks to my mom Linda, my sister Lisa and my best girl Liana for throwing Baby Aguiar an adorable shower right up his or her alley!
So last night I had my first experience with pregnancy heartburn, and I’m here to tell you, I could do without experiencing THAT again.
It was not. at. all. like what my perception of heartburn is, which had me completely unsure of what exactly was happening, I just knew that if I wanted to (barely!) be able to breathe, I had to be sitting completely upright, or else it was nonstop gasping to breath, and frankly, as someone who enjoys oxygen and being able to breath, that was no good.
Baby was ridiculously active yesterday and it’s possible he or she stirred something up… and then was as quiet as a lamb for a long time, which naturally, had me a little freaked when I didn’t know exactly what was happening to me (we ended up calling the ob gyn because I was so scared and uncomfortable I couldn’t keep myself from crying, and my ob gyn has always told me never hesitate to reach out if something seems off or amiss!), and it wasn’t til baby started moving again that I started to feel better mentally and emotionally (which in all honesty, was worse than any physical pain 😔)
I know some moms who experienced heartburn their entire pregnancy and my heart and hat goes off to you, because one bout of that was ENOUGH for this chick!
Did you have heartburn at all during pregnancy? What helped you? My doc has okay’d me taking Zantac and my hero husband ran out late last night to get me some and man, for someone who hates taking medication, I was so beyond grateful!
Alright moms and dads!
Tell me, at what point did you start to feel some anxiety kick in, and what helped you feel a little less anxious? I’ve been cruising, but the last week or so I have definitely felt some anxious moments (it’s also entirely possible the current fuckery regarding women’s rights has something to do with it!)
(PLEASE NOTE: I consider this COMPLETELY normal; it is NOT a panic about my ability/inability to navigate parenthood – with something as life changing as becoming a parent, I’d be more concerned if I WASN’T feeling a little anxiety!)
So there I was, laying on the acupuncture table, halfway through a treatment; calm, relaxed… almost asleep!
And then this crazy chill came over me. AND THEN… for the very. first. time… I felt the baby move! And then again… and again… 6 times total, and yes it’s subtle compared to those crazy kick/punch videos people show, but there was no mistaking that!
How far along were you when you felt your baby move for the first time? I just hit 21 weeks today!
I have a confession to make, and it’s not one of those silly cutesy confessions, sadly.
Sara snapped this pic of me in Arizona while I was shell hunting with the kids, and while my first thought should have been “oh so fun, a pic of awesome memories with her kiddos!”, my thoughts instead jumped right to holy. fucking. shit… my thighs are NOT carrying pregnancy well AT ALL.
And they aren’t, that much is true. But it bothers me that instead of focusing on the beauty of pregnancy and ALL the parts that come with it – the good, the bad, and the seemingly ugly – I zeroed in on a massive flaw.
Pregnancy has changed my body a LOT, and I have struggled with this change a little more than I’d like to admit, because for 36+ years my weight has never fluctuated much if at all; I’ve always been proportionate and petite.
That’s just what I know.
But I’m here experiencing the. very. best. reason to gain weight.
I’m here experiencing the. very. best. reason for body changes.
I’m here experiencing the. very. best. reason for growth, and fatigue, and perhaps even some discomfort.
And so I checked myself and I thanked her for this picture. And I hope someday I’ll look back on this and remember all the adventures I took my baby on in utero, and smile instead of focusing on any flaws.
Because again, while I have fleeting moments that challenge me, I am SO VERY grateful to be able to experience pregnancy, and I will do better with giving my body a break as it continues with the hardest, yet most rewarding thing it has ever experienced.
Were you critical of your body during pregnancy?
You know what I find heroic?
Yes, of course our military, first responders and their families/the people who support them, absolutely!
But I also find it heroic when someone decides to love themselves as they are, while also loving themselves enough to show up to be even better.
It IS heroic when someone realizes their self worth enough to know they are great, but can be even greater. To show up, shine their light, and be their brightest self.
It is NOT selfish to take the time for yourself and your wellness – I do it now and I will continue doing so through my pregnancy AND after the baby is here.
It might be a little more challenging, but when have you ever known me to back down from a challenge?! 😉
Definitely not drunk, because baby! 😍
It’s been a while since I could wear this shirt because it definitely shows my little bump (which has been fairly evident since early on due to my small size) and as much as we wanted to share our secret earlier, we just couldn’t!
But I feel so free having it out there and not having to hide anymore – hardest secret to keep EVER, am I right?! I mean you wanna shout it from the rooftops but you have to be cautious early on!
If you pay attention to the ‘was’, you can see our little bump 💕
So blown away by all of the love, support, excitement and kind words!
We have such an amazing circle and we could not be more grateful 💕