Well, the ‘bad’ news is my A1c has not gone down even a little bit like I had been hoping. But the good news, which far outweighs the ‘bad’, is that it didn’t go up even a little, and considering we went right from the months-long holiday foods period right into what’s been a brutally cold, harsh winter ripe with desires for comfort foods and a lack of motivation to do much of anything, I’m actually gonna chalk the lack of change up to a good thing, a successful holiday/winter period.
My doctor was also very impressed with how healthy I am, also stating that even if I don’t feel its reflected in my A1c score, I am in fabulous health and he is very impressed with how I’ve taken hold of my health, and made great strides to keep my Diabetes under control.
I shared with him how I am now sharing my journey, and my desire to help others, and how much more confident I feel in myself and my abilities, and he smiled and seemed impressed. He knows how much this means to me.
Truth: I long to be back under 6.0; I’ve been there before and it was extremely satisfying. But I’m happy where I am, too. Diabetes is more than a number, it’s also about how you feel, and I feel fantastic. I feel healthy, alive, inspired, capable, and energized. It’s a great feeling.
Maybe it will go down by my next appointment in June, maybe it won’t. But I think I’ve finally moved past seeing that number as the end-all-be-all. I’ve finally put that number (to a reasonable degree at least, as it IS still a helpful number) in the same place I put the scale number – the “nice-to-know-but-doesn’t-tell-me-as-much-as-how-I-feel-does” place.
So even if I hold steady at 6.5, it’s lightyears from what it was at diagnosis – 8.3!
Here’s to getting, and staying, healthy! 🙂