Adventures in Pregnancy – 37 weeks and gettin’ schooled!

Ahhh, pregnancy. I’m 37 weeks in now, and boy has pregnancy taught me a few things!

I’m a doer, a very action-oriented person. I always have errands, projects, a house to maintain, things to be done, because I don’t love too much idle time – our time on Earth is so short, while it IS necessary to relax, I don’t wanna spend TOO MUCH time relaxing, I’d rather be LIVING.

And pregnancy is this weird mashup of having so. much. to. do, yet such little energy with which to do it… and especially towards the end, feeling a strong urge to take it extra easy to store your energy reserves for what’s coming.

At a time when everything seems to speed up, it’s necessary to slow down, and it’s been an adjustment for me, truly. I’m not much of a couch potato, but I’ve logged more downtime couch hours during the last half of my pregnancy than probably all my life combined (probably an exaggeration but it does feel that way!)

While I’m POSITIVE it will all be worth it, it’s definitely been an adjustment; that’s not necessarily a bad thing, it’s just a fact of life. But it’s part of this whole blessing, so I’m doing my best to honor that.

Did you slow down towards the end, or did you stay full speed ahead?

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Adventures in Pregnancy – Pregnancy Brain!

Latest showing of pregnancy brain:

“I’m just gonna sit for 20 minutes then I’m gonna hop in the fridge…” “ummm I mean the shower, not the fridge…”

Lawd… I think my husband needs to carry a recorder 24/7 to catch the gems that already come out of my mouth (and I’m sure with sleep deprivation coming soon, I’m really gonna say some wackadoo ish!)

Did you say funny stuff while pregnant?

Adventures in Pregnancy – Holy baby brain!

My child better come out a creative genius, because as creative as I was before, it’s been nonexistent this whole pregnancy! Haven’t even managed to finish the nursery yet, much less with any creative flair, haha.

Sheesh, baby!

Did you feel like your brain capacity took a hit when you were pregnant? I usually pride myself on being sharp, focused and organized, but this entire pregnancy has been a real eye opener!

Adventures in Pregnancy – Fetal Evaluation

 

So even though my blood sugars, blood pressure, and the baby’s heart rate have been close to perfection (her words, not mine!) my whole pregnancy, she has me going for twice weekly fetal evaluation just to ensure things are staying on track towards the end of pregnancy, because I guess towards the end things can (and sometimes do!) change quickly, and she feels this is something that will help arm us with valuable information.

I do like getting to hear 30 minutes of a strong heartbeat twice a week, as opposed to the 3 second clips I was getting prior!

It is a truly magical sound, like nothing I have ever heard!

Adventures in Pregnancy – ALL the feels…

Today, I cried.

I sat in my docs office discussing important things, and then suddenly, woooooosh, this POWERFUL wave of emotions completely overcame me, my voice broke, and I cried.

I am a verrrrrry emotional being, and I think no one is more surprised than myself that I haven’t sobbed my way through this pregnancy more than I actually have… and I think being so close (yet still. so. farrrr.) and discussing such real stuff kinda hit me hard, and I was no match for the emotions.

So I cried. I surrendered. She assured me these emotions and the manner they hit me were normal. We went and met with more of my team, we discussed some of the things concerning me, we made a plan, we discussed resources, we just simply talked it all out… and I felt better.

Am I still nervous? Of course! I’d be worried if I didn’t have any nerves about something so incredibly life changing.

But I DO have faith that through the various resources, we’ll get the support we need. I DO have faith that through various avenues, we will be able to bring in some income during my maternity leave (that was a huge part of my stress – feeling like I either had to take a 3 month, no-paycheck hit, which we are comfortable in life but not quite THAT comfortable, or leave my baby a mere two weeks after giving birth, which would honestly not only completely shatter my heart, but could also be disastrous to my health as we will need time to find the new normal for my blood sugars post partum!), and I DO have faith that every little thing will be alright, someway and somehow.

Knowing there are support systems and such in place, and hearing about these directly from those who deal with them every day, directly from the people who will handle much of it for me, went a long way towards easing the stress of wondering how I was gonna make all that work while also navigating the beginning of motherhood and all the powerful postpartum emotions I anticipate myself experiencing – and I think we’ve established what stress does to a diabetic, so I was definitely on this vicious cycle, and I’m happy to have climbed off and caught my breath.

As for all the other feelings, I consider them all normal; as I said, I would be more concerned if something so incredibly life changing wasn’t registering within my heart, mind, and soul. Knowing myself, and knowing what an emotionally charged person I am, I know this is normal for me and to be expected, and I’m incredibly blessed to have such a wonderful support team to guide me through, and incredible friends and family by my side.

They say it takes a village and I could NOT be more thankful, grateful, or blessed for the one we have; for the one that will help us welcome this tiny baby into the world.

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Adventures in Pregnancy – Gone Phishin’

Some get it, some don’t.

Everyone is different.

For me, live music, and especially Phish, have been some of my happiest, most soul-replenishing experiences.

I mean they’d have to be if I’m willing to do two nights in a row in the dead of summer at 8 months pregnant, right?!

Every live show I’m reminded how blessed I am that I still have enough hearing to enjoy them. It sounds silly, but live music is just my happy place and I’m just always grateful to experience it.

Most probably know the Curveball debacle – how excited I was for it, how much I NEEDED it after a rough year of family hurt, and how sad I was when it was cancelled without a note being played.

And I wanted a couple of shows before I dive into motherhood (for the record I will still see Phish as a mother, it just may not be quite as easy) – I needed a phix and I just wanted to go phishin’ with my friends!

And it was awesome! It was exhausting, but exhilarating. I walked over 8 miles in two days and danced a lot too. Yes, I also sat waaaay more than I ever have at any show (you usually can’t get me to stop bogeying – but I’m also not usually 8 months pregnant 😉) but I could still hear the music, see the lights, feel the vibe… I made it work for me!

And people were AWESOME! I got so many high fives, people asking me when I’m due and if I know what it is, countless people offered me waters, this sweet soul kept misting me with her water fan and actually let me borrow her little fishman donut hand fan… people showed me time and time again why I LOVE this community so much!

It was also pretty cool to feel the baby groove to his or her favorite songs – baby most definitely had some choice picks!

For the record, I went extremely prepared with snacks, water, a cooling cloth to be able to place on my neck, Gatorade, my insulin, a note from my doctor declaring I’m both diabetic and pregnant and should be allowed to keep my snacks and medical supplies with me – the gate attendants didn’t even need to see the letter but it never hurts to have it. I wore my shoes, not flip flops, to help all the walking, my husband and I never separated, I knew exactly where every bathroom was, and I was very attuned to my body and it’s limits and took breaks when I needed to, which is important.

It was hot, and it was a lot of work, and I definitely welcomed some downtime today with which to recover, but I don’t regret that experience at all, and I’m proud as eff of how my super pregnant little body held up (which was also helped by how active I’ve remained during my pregnancy!) and every day I become more and more awestruck at what my body is capable of!

So, everyone is different, but don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do things that are meaningful to you just because you are pregnant. Yes, there are things you shouldn’t do, and it really does vary by person/pregnancy, but provided you play smart, listen to your body, and vow to put the safety of yourself and your unborn baby first, you can totally go Phishin’ 8 months pregnant!

What a weekend for the books, and I’m so grateful 💕

Adventures in Pregnancy – Phishin’ night 1!

Baby definitely had his or her favorites last night, but the most movement came during The Squirming Coil!

I’ll chat more later about experiencing Phish 8 months pregnant, but night 1 went well and we had a blast and it was so. freakin. nice. to phinally get a phix after waaaay too long between shows (no thanks to you, Curveball! 😜)

Excited to see what night 2 brings! 🐠🎶💕

 

Adventures in Pregnancy – Bout of Sickness

What a night.

It started with me losing my dinner, which is unfortunate in and of itself, but the real issue there is that because I had already taken insulin, the insulin stays in my system despite the food having since left stage right, so that of course sent me into a tailspin of shaky lows and lethargy… since I, like most people, am not eager to stuff my face just after I’ve gotten sick, there was a bit of waiting game there before I could have a snack to temper the lows.

All of this while fireworks were being lit off all damn night, seemingly next door to my house, absolutely terrifying my dog and sending her into her own shaky tailspin, which always hurts my heart so bad.

I don’t normally take two days off of working out in a row, but I’m just not feeling it today, I’m super low energy and kinda feel like I got hit by a truck so the plan for right now is just relax and regroup a bit, since I have a really active, busy weekend to store my energy for.

I give crazy kudos to you mamas who got sick a lot during pregnancy and just kept on trucking – that shit is hard and you are rockstars!

Happy 4th of July, everyone 🇺🇸💕