I am STUNNED.
I had blood work today, 3 months after we began treating me as a Type 1 Diabetic, after treating as a Type 2 the previous 8+ years.
It’s been a LONG TIME since I left my doctors office happy and feeling positive! 😊
As a Type 2, I was doing everything right (but not perfectly), and it was actually making me worse… consistently boosting my numbers and well, to say that was defeating and frustrating wouldn’t even begin to cover it.
And I’ll admit to serious resistance to treat as Type 1 because as I have been very open about, the idea of more needles/injections was absolutely nauseating.
But I agreed to give it a try because, while I hate to use the word ‘desperation’, that’s what my attempts to get my Diabetes under control had become, and I honestly couldn’t stand that.
The bad results despite my efforts were stressing me out, which was making said results even worse. It was a vicious cycle and I finally recognized I couldn’t keep doing this hamster wheel junk.
And my first visit since we changed my course of treatment (a month into the new treatment), I wasn’t too impressed BUT I did decide I was going to trust my DOCTOR when he told me to trust my BODY – that this period of adjustment was both necessary and normal; that my body was doing what it needed to do.
(And it was HARD to trust the process… but believe it or not, I can DO hard things!)
I went in today expecting bad numbers because honestly, October kicked my ass; my stress levels were through the roof and I ate every ounce of my emotions.
But here, today, he gave me my lowest numbers in over 4 years. He gave me a number that, while still having room for improvement, has me sitting pretty as a controlled Diabetic… and that’s what I have longed for, that’s what I have been working towards for YEARS.
It’s still work, on my end… day in, day out. But the takeaway here, for me, is it’s important to stay open minded and be willing to go out of your comfort zone to do what’s best for yourself. You are worth that.
Sometimes it’s what you resist the most that can also HELP you the most!