Feel Good Friday – Show Up, Do Your Best, Forget The Rest

Show up, do your best…
and then • f o r g e t . t h e . r e s t •

The world might try to make you feel like you don’t measure up – don’t listen. You DO. Always.

Unconditionally.

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Thursday Thoughts – Growth is Radical

I went to an old former workplace the other day – I started my time there a little over 16 years ago when I was a 20 year old baby, and I haven’t worked there in over 11 years…

I ran into a few of my favorite coworkers, one whom hadn’t seen me in years, and she was just gobsmacked (and gushing, because she’s the sweetest little lady EVER) that I look exactly the same and when I said something sassy, she remarked that I am just the same as I ever was… and it alarmed me a little how quick I was to correct her and say “oh no, I have grown, I have evolved, I am no longer anyone’s doormat, and if the shit this place – customers, contractors and coworkers alike – put me through then were to happen now, there would be a lot more hurt feelings out there courtesy of ME.”

And she was just stunned. And so proud, she got tears in her eyes and she was just so blown away by how I found my voice, my confidence, my self esteem, and my sense of self worth. The two of them were A L W A Y S trying to instill my sense of self worth, they were ALWAYS trying to coax my confidence out of me.

And I don’t mean to sound rude or self righteous, but there were MANY, many years where I just did not stand up for myself; I tolerated mental and emotional abuse, and it was often my coworkers who stood up for me and got hell raisers on their way.

So it’s freakin’ empowering to see how I have grown!

I don’t love that there was a period in my life where I felt it was causing conflict to stand up for myself… but it just means I can look back now and realize how truly far I have come – it inspires me, and I won’t be going back to that shy, meek person who never was sure of her own worth.

Growth is freakin’ radical as eff, feel me?

Wellness Wednesday – Chocolate Rehab

The truth is, the pull for chocolate was never an issue for me. I had no desire for it, so I had no trouble resisting it.

My sister once won a 5lb bar of chocolate when we were kids, and I remember thinking ‘that’s one of the worst prizes!’

Amongst my peers, I was definitely in the minority. People always told me they wished they didn’t love and crave chocolate the way they did, that they wish they had such ‘self control’.

It wasn’t self control though – I just didn’t want the stuff!

But then things changed. Boy, did. things. change.

When I was diagnosed as a Diabetic, suddenly chocolate (and all the other stuff like cookies, cakes, ice cream, etc) had a LOT more appeal; suddenly the desires I never really had, I was having a little too easily and a little too often. And these desires were freakin’ INTENSE.

“Mmmm chocolate! How could I not have loved you all my life?!”

And it was like my body wanted to make up for lost time!

I battle these desires basically all day, every day now. The struggle is sometimes a little too real. It is what it is, and I do my best… but I am also grateful to have this little savior here – I can satisfy many of my chocolate cravings without spiking my blood sugars, without the sugar crash, without the empty calories.

I’m grateful to have such an option that can help me reclaim my health, because if we’re keeping it real here, the candy aisle is NOT gonna do that 😉

Transformation Tuesday – LIIFT 4 Results!

8 weeks, 32 workouts, 6.25 inches

So I mean, could you imagine what a transformation I might have if I could get my nutrition dialed in?!

I might be unstoppable! 😉

I’m still pretty happy with my results, but I am also a little relieved that summer and it’s abundance of parties and cookouts and BBQ’s (oh my!) are on the way out!

I don’t struggle with fitness nearly as much as I struggle with nutrition, so for the next go, I am FOCUSING more on nutrition – I NEED that!

Next round starts the 24th – you with us?! You can request to join us here!

 

 

Mind Over Matter Monday – SLAY

Sometimes I purposely pick out the shirts I wear. Reverse engineering happening and such…

There’s a lot going on in my life both personally and professionally and I definitely feel pulled in way too many directions, dodging too many stressors.

And I know for what I’m trying to achieve, stress isn’t conducive to that, so I’m trying to remind myself that all I can do is my best.

And sometimes, that doesn’t feel like slaying… but considering the pull I’ve been feeling to just curl up and block everything out, that I’m waking up, and showing up, for right now, that’s slaying.

You gotta give yourself credit for even showing up – sometimes that’s a battle in and of itself!

Sunday Struggles – Don’t Take Things Personally

Our STRUGGLES are part of our STORY.

I still struggle not to feel isolated. I still struggle to feel like I am part of things; to not feel lonely even when surrounded by people.

I think this is part and parcel with someone who lost her hearing at a crucial time in life. And I can’t speak for other hard of hearing people, but I would bet money that I’m not the only one who feels this way on occasion.

So when things like someone in our party saying goodbye to everyone but me threaten to set me back… I have to remind myself people are human and commit oversights; that the persons intent likely wasn’t to make me feel isolated or less than. Shit happens.

Most people don’t set out to make others feel that way, and I know this! My mental battle isn’t always confident in that, but I continue to work on that. I continue to remember that I matter and I’m not invisible, no matter how it seems/feels at times.

Your mind is your biggest obstacle to overcome. Trust me on that.

 

Flex Friday – Lead By Example

It ain’t easy putting yourself out there, can we just acknowledge that?!

Even though I post flex pics, and it might seem like I’m a bit of a narcissist, it’s actually a daily battle for me to post almost anything body/wellness related…

Because I still sometimes battle the mentality that it’s nothing to write home about. I still sometimes find myself focusing on flaws, and I still sometimes feel silly when posting pics of my efforts.

I still sometimes brace myself for those negative comments that sometimes follow (usually privately because keyboard warriors are not known for their courage 😉).

But do you know why I do it ANYWAYS? Because I’m a FIRM believer in practicing what I preach, and I am ALWAYS telling my challengers to be proud of their efforts and be empowered to share them, so that means rising above my own hang ups and SHARING, being proud and WALKING THE WALK.

I am a lot of things, but a ‘do as I say, not as I do’ person is not one of them!

I only hope to inspire and empower others to feel good enough to share their efforts, be proud of themselves, and know that everything – big or small – IS worth celebrating

What The Eff Wednesday – Some Runs Suck

Some runs just suck. I’m just keeping it real.

Luckily, not the majority.

But some do. And today was one. I woke when it got light out and hit the roads, not realizing til too late the thick, strangulating air that’s been my biggest nemesis this summer was baaack.

And it wrecked me. 😩

Most who know me know my penchant for even, rounded figures, and I’m known to lap up and down my short side street in order to get my run to full miles… but today that last .19 wasn’t in me.

It was the first run where I actually questioned if I was gonna get sick so I opted to just get myself hope and call it a day.

Because we can’t be badasses every day… we need some humbling days to balance us out and remind us the good days far outnumber the bad ones 😉

And here we have what I call my “whatthefuckjusthappened” face…